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So I have a sore throat. Bah.
On a c2c train to Benfleet to visit the grandparents and see the pwetty airplanes at the airshow.
Stayed in on Friday night. ref:Adam turned up with a friend of his and many many huge suitcases...he is a proper fag I think as they were all clothes
Bought them many cans as they were on special. Played Rick some of B5 - legend of the Rangers - by way of illustration of how appalling it was.
Early night, then early morning. I got Adam up so he could get to Southend and pick up the rest of his stuff, then did little else apart from gossip online. Arranged with Chris to go to XXL with him, and also chatted to JJ about it, as he was going too in one of his rare appearances. He was meant to be coming with a mate but his mate cancelled or something and so I agreed to meet him at Tower Hill for much RV1 goodness. Only he thought I meant London Bridge so it all went a bit Pete Tong. Eventually got to XXL. Chris was an hour and a bit late. Pah. I pulled twice, tho technically it wasn’t me doing the pulling the 2nd time as I was sorta jumped on. Ended up leaving at 6am (!!!) and taking JJ home as he’s a pisshead and would have got lost.
Got up earlyish Sunday. 3 hours sleep. Cunning. Pootled about online. Admired JJs hangover. Introduced him to Adam and Cassetteboy. Comedy!
Went to Somerfields and spent too much. Mmm. Shopping when hungry is a baaad thing
Cunningly we managed to leave a bag of shopping there too. We rock.
Adam’s ex housemate apparently seems to think we’re married or something. Freaky.
Watched the season finale of Stargate SG:1 - surprised by it actually being quite good! Fairly early night (10:30).
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Smurgles
So I’ve been mostly feeling shit. Feeling underslept and feeling like I can’t concentrate. Bit of an issue at work, but I’ll deal I guess. I am writing this on my lappy as the other PCs are busy updating Slackware and breaking rather spectacularly
I think I may write a script that mirrors the slack update site and then installs any new stuff every day. It’s probably gonna be less painful than using slapt-get - an amusing take on apt by some dodgy Debian developer that seems capable of breaking things spectacularly
So...work been painful. Not really done owt else tho...downloaded lots of Southpark, it’s rather fabby.
Adam is in Southend packing, Ron is out with some bloke and will be back two hours ago *smirk* so am all on my own. It’s quiet. Window is open and all I can hear is the mellow noises of cars going past the flat. Loveleh!
I just really wanna fag now. Grr
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cor!
Pepto Bizmol makes your poo go black!
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Morning has broken
...and the weather’s shite. Just in time for the flower show. Yay!
Nikki is down today for the Chelsea Flower Show, hopefully meeting her after work...another day of bug fiddling and stuff. Joy.
Felt mostly OK at work. Dave looked awful though. Had a cold. And today I feel like I may be getting one too. Grr.
Got home fairly early last night. Did Ron pie and potato and gravy. Was lovely and he didn’t even realise it was all veggie
Watched some Firefly with Ron. Think he liked it. James went to bed at about 9:30 so should probably check if he’s ok when I get out of the tube. Hope he’s not got the lurgy
Went to bed but couldn’t sleep. Adam got in at midnightish so I got up again and chatted to him for a bit. Ron still has an upset stomach, so if it’s still bad today I shall make him phone NHS direct and see what they think.
I am soo knackered. I think I need a holiday.
Adam seems to like the idea of France. Yay! Will see what I can book on Friday.
Off to Southend on Saturday to mend PCs, and wander about taking pics. Rah! Should be helping Adam move too....
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On Sunday, the story continues.
We went home via the offy, fed Ron beer and had a little Archers & lemonade myself. Watched some telly and went to bed. Smess had arranged a picnic for Sunday...so we got sorted and after a slow morning headed off to Greenwich...me on the bike, Ron with my travelcard. I got lost. Dom and Pete were late. Ron ended up waiting at Cutty Sark for half hour as I found myself. I had packed A&L and 5 cans of beer. And a camera + tripod. Heavy bag. And the lift was broken @ Greenwich foot tunnel. Grr. I got there, knackered. Ron was feeling ill - he had been mixing his drinks a lot - Dom and Pete arrived at quarter to 4 as their train wasn’t running and they had to get a bus. Phoned Smess, no answer. Texted him instead. No answer. Got to the park and lounged about taking photos of random stuff. No sign of Smess and no-one else wanted the beer. Grr. Headed back at 6ish. Got to Limehouse in time to watch Ron chuck up all over a bus stop. “Told you I felt sick” he says... Got to flat and decided to cook Duck for everyone whilst they watched Spider-man. Ducks are bastards to carve. Fuck all meat on ’em an all...They all left and I went to bed. Got to work pretty much on time Monday. Only at 11ish I almost threw up at my desk...went to Boots to see what they’d recommend for it and got a big pink bottle of “Pepto Bismol”. Managed until about 12:30 and had to call it a day again. Fucking hell. Why am I so unfit? I need to be back on my bike. Moped about at home. Adam turned up and we had a chat bout stuff. Watched some telly then went to bed. Slept crappily. Grr
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Funksome.
My sore neck exploded into agony over the course of Wednesday, I ended up being first smothered in tiger balm by Rach, which left me still in pain but smelling much funkier, and then heading home early as it hurt too much to concentrate. And it steadily got worse. On the plus side, my new phone arrived and it is luvverly. Adam was meant to be getting back at about 6ish to see Ron, who was coming over to see us. Fortunately I was back by 5ish as Adam didn’t turn up and Ron would have been stranded outside. Well, he would have been if he’d have turned up either. *giggle*
Gas man was late, so I was in for him. He reckons the boiler is fine and that what we smelt was exhaust fumes coming back through the window on account of the scaffolding outside. So I’ll probably have to pay for him too. Grr. Ron turned up at about 8ish, watched Bart Mangled Banner and was only vaguely impressed. Possibly because I was in pain. Early night.
Slept none at all, really, as whenever I would doze off I’d wake up in pain as soon as I moved my head in my sleep. Gave up at about 5am and got up. Adam turned up having walked home and being knackered after having had his bag nicked. Phoned in sick. Phoned my doctor who reckoned it was something called “tortollis” (sp?) which is fairly common and apparently recurring. Joy. Took ibuprofen. Had no effect. It was my last one and I think it possibly did have an effect but that the pain was just getting worse. As it wore off the pain got so bad that instead of merely feeling sick with pain I started to feel faint. It was horrible. Never felt like that before
TJ turned up to pick up his ring, having skated from Waterloo (and apparently bouncing off the side of a bus!) and took a liking to Ron. Bless. I was pacing about the flat by this point, almost in tears, not knowing what to do about the pain. If I lay down then it felt OK but keeping my head still made it worse when I eventually did move my head. Settled for wandering between rooms looking like a psycho - slowly moving my head around.
Adam went off to grab his bag, which was apparently with his ex. All sounded dodgy to me.
Went to bed. Got next to no sleep again. TJ and Ron were left in the living room.
Got up early. Couldn’t sleep again. Was in slightly less pain though, which was good. Called in sick again, went back to bed and actually got a little sleep. Neck steadily improved throughout the day. Sent the boys all home as I was seeing James in the evening. Thankfully my neck wasn’t too distracting...
Played “Party Monster” at him and hugged lots. Was nice. Chatted some too
Got up Saturday morning and my neck was feeling better still - got on me bike and went and bought a new saddle and some shopping including brekkie for James and a whole duck for a fiver. Watched the season finale of Angel with James and pottered about. Ron came back from Owen’s and scared James. We went to Canary Wharf to play with phones, then I spent 59p in Waitrose, which had no cake forks so I sulked. James wandered off home and we went to tower and missed the sunset I wanted to photograph. Grr.
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GAH!
So I wake up this morning and I can’t move my neck without being in severe pain. Grr. Got to work yesterday with no music as I forgot to charge my DAP. Bah. More bugs and a lovely new chunk of compare functionality. And a ranking system. Have left most of it for today. CVS issues plagued us for most of the morning so didn’t get that much done. Home at 7ish to discover gas man hadn’t arrived yet...he turned up at half past and managed to trip the meter again taking the sealing plug out. So another pointless trip for him, another day without hot water, another Transco trip. Grr.
My flat is apparently being sandblasted on Thursday. Scary!
Taught Adam IRC. He popped onto #queer as “houseboy” - it seems that the usual suspects really do believe he’s with me coz I pay for him. Freaks. Still, it’s dead funny.
Also think I hooked him on Firefly.
I’d forgotten how good even the bad episodes were.
Slightly later night than I meant to - watched Enterprise 21 and it was poo. Set myself acquiring 23 before I left and grabbed Simpsons 17 ep 21 - Bart Mangled Banner - which I shall watch tonight (as well as Little Fluffy Clouds for Adam). So, fun, Javascript fuelled day. Rah.
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Uninspiring Monday...
Groovy coding all over the site. Removed the images from the old folder and checked that they were all in the new ones. Polished some bits. Fixed some bugs. Phoned the agency and got them to send out a gas person. Warned Adam about it and left work early so I could be there when he arrived. Discovered that the gas wasn’t going past the meter. Grr. Phoned Transco again, they promised someone within 4 hours. Bastards. They turned up at around 10:30 and stuffed a card in the meter to reset it and left again. 2mins work. Grr. Chatted with James some then went to bed.
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Cor. Tube broken again *unshocker*
So I decide to go to Retro after work to see if I can get some cashback. They don’t do it any more. Bastards. Bear is there, we sorta manage a stilted conversation because we don’t really know each other, and my brain fails to operate after 5 hours solid Javascript. (compare function is pretty though ).
Matthew pats me on the shoulder and says “allo treacle” or something daft. Matthew and me go way back, see - he used to hang out in Ku Bar during the first IRC rennaisance all those years ago, and we just bump into each other every 6 months - year or so and catch up. So we have a bit of a gossip and a chat.
Danny turns up too, and then Ollie, we’re meant to go to CXR and drink but kind of fail to manage it. Ollie gets text from Sal telling him to come to Chariots and shag Marky, somewhat surrealy. Sal turns up, I need to go to the Swan, Danny still wants to go to CXR, Retro is shutting so I stagger onto a bus and end up drunkenly chatting to a random dealer about his work and how much he is capable of ripping off tourists - which is lovely.
Get to the Swan and bump into MrsKevinFromDownTheRoad. I can never remember his name, which is bad of me. “Kev’s asleep so I’ve sneaked out” - chat for a bit, then Kev turns up and it’s all funny as they go into their usual being jealous of each other trying to eye up other people thing. I end up somehow talking to some random Irish woman who was telling me that she loved her gay nephew and how there was nothing wrong with being gay, etc. I kindly pointed out that yes, I was aware of this fact and that all of us in the bar were probably aware of this too. Chatted to her nephew too - “if it wasn’t for your aunt then two people such as us would probably never in a million years chatted”. God I’m such a twat when drunk.
Danny texted me. Or I texted him. Not quite sure which way around, but basically he came over at about 2:30am having been randomly texted by a friend of his and dragged to GAY. Ronnie, his friend, came along too...stayed up a bit and drank even more. Oopsie...
Woke at the crack of 11am and made coffee. Lots of coffee. Put Cassetteboy on to amuse Ron, and discovered his name again. Decided on the spur of the moment, as the weather was so gorgeously fabulous. Sent out a few invites an stuff. Felt crap. *unshocker*
Ron discovered the wonders of my webcam. As did Owen. Danny was scared
Danny went off to deal with James - I curled up on the floor and tried not to die too much. Ron kept flirting with Owen, the feelthy whore. Danny came back again and I went to lay down for some. Owen turned up on his way to predictably fail to arrive @ Retro for their Eurovision partay. Ron discovered my camera. Bless. Between us over 2 days we took half a gig of pics. Oops! Adam and Marky and Dom and Pete and Daniel also turned up as well. I stayed in bed for a while
Eventually managed to stagger out of bed and socialise some. Owen had got Ron and Adam in shorts, tho Adam’s were a tad obscene *smirk*. Much alcohol and rudeness involving Owen and classy phrases like “It’s gone up my nose!” All very silly.
Lounging about in the bedroom, some of them suddenly smelt gas, so we ran about making sure it was all turned off and then phoned Transco and got someone out. He arrived, interrupting the occupants of the bedroom and mentioned that he needed a ladder as he couldn’t reach up there. So he had to get someone else out. Fun!
He eventually arrived whilst I was scaring people with “Party Monster”. He’s qualified to check the bits up to the boiler but not that bit, so I am told it’s all ok and there’s no leak but I am not allowed to use the boiler until it’s been checked out by the landlord’s bloke.
Went to bed. Slept lots. Which was surprising as there were three of us in it
Danny had decided to get pissed and stay up all night coding on manny, see. Kept popping in and saying “this rocks” and showing me bits of PHP. Bless.
Need to sort my bike out! This tub
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Cor!
OK. Angel seems to have been written for people with 14 day memories this season. Grr. Still, a mighty fine episode. If a little predictable. Nearly finished the monster Javascript beasty thing that drives “compare”. Still considering adding a little flourish...might do if I get time. Am considering, as it requires Javascript to work, just disabling it for non Javascript enabled browsers, but may get into trouble, so might leave it “as is”. At any rate, I can think about it after Tuesday’s merge. Train broken at Shepherds Bush. Delayed. Unshocker. Am considering again writing some software to sync with Freakcity for the Palm. Meant to be meeting J after work...first time I’ve seen him in nearly a month. Rah. Or something. Beta is working oddly - logs me out whenever I post - which is strange. Will see if it’s the same @ work. • 9:01: Right. Let’s hope I don’t have to wait 15 mins for a bus again. Grr. More and more I’m suspecting that the beheading video is fake. Experts seem to agree there’s no Al Qaeda reference in it and that it was simply a convenient mistake by the US administration. Also, there’s the act itself. A man being decapitated would squirt blood and would probably wriggle more. I’ve no doubt he’s dead, just suspect it happened a while before the video was shot. Also, he was a hostage, they asked for the freedom of some prisoners in exchange for his life, the US said “no” and he was (unsurprisingly) killed for it. Not the first and certainly not the last. However, there’s a bunch of Whitehouse friendly blokes in the media who see the publishing of the prison torture pics as treasonous and they are trying to spin this into a “revenge” killing to gain the moral high ground and prove the point that dead Americans are the price of press freedom. And this is all conveniently detracting from what’s actually happening in Iraq...which isn’t pretty.
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Yargh!
Worked on compare yesterday...have heap big pile of funky Javascript to write today to make the bastard work now. Check for cookies, set hotel name to cookie, read details from cookie, prepopulate results, enable unselection, beat people who don’t have first party cookies enabled to death (the ’tards), etc. And make it small, dammit. So that’ll be fun
Chilled out last night as opposed to doing any real work. Felt better for it. Spent much of yesterday in pain with an ingrown toenail, so dug it out with a pair of scissors. Ow. Lost my phone bid on eBay (unshocker - I only bid £52) but bid on another - got it for £94, about £50 cheaper than they are 2nd hand on the CEX website, so yay me. Something will go horribly wrong now, I’m sure.
Shall try and acquire a new case for the 6310i and sell it.
The Mail is up in arms about some mother whose 14 year old daughter had a secret abortion sanctioned by her school advisor. And her mother found out about it *on the street* Or something. I suspect bollocks.
Tube delayed. Unshocker. So am sat here listening to Holly strumming and twiddling my thumbs. Still, it’s better than yesterday, Central line was suspended because of a security alert, so I had to walk from St Paul’s to Blackfriars. Bastards.
Today I am mostly yawny. And bored of waiting for buses. Rick turned up online yesterday, had a fight with a friend and so wasn’t online for a bit. Sounded down.
Watched Enterprise 3.20 - Not too bad but not too good either. Watched “The Gift” again too, and some of the special features, whilst I waited for Entuhprise to arrive. They don’t make telly like that any more. Damn them.
Syd Barrett is odd.
Two more episodes of Angel to go and there still appears to be little plot arc. Ho hum
Why did Jean Michel Jarre ever bother releasing a lameass track filled with children going “lalala” lots. ’Tard.
Well. Am on a bus. Am going to be late. Bah. Left almost on time yesterday too, as Rich was meant to be coming round with the new Peter Pan. Tho he didn’t show and so now I must spank him. *cackle*.
Been using Trillian at work. Not too shabby at all
Texted Stephen who I used to work with last Friday - still has the same number - will probably see if James wants to do something after work tomorrow and if not, see if he fancies a drink...Would be nice to catch up
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Grr. Forgot pass *again*
What to do? Store a user’s timezone and then display their blogs according to that, or simply just do it all in GMT?
Had chicken and roast spuds yesterday evening. Roasted mushrooms too. mmMMm.
Chatted a bit with James. New job going well, still want to see him in a suit, mind. Chatted some to Josh, which was nice. Still no sign of Rick *or* Adam, which is a pain. Might phone Adam later as I am a tad worried. He’s not answered any of his messages to Roger either - which is bad.
Found a fab bug in Freakcity, if someone creates a topic and then deletes the post, then the topic stays. I really should sort out the DB’s referential integrity. Oops!
Need to tweak the beta a bit too so it honours prefs and stuff.
Freakcity camping looks set to go ahead in August, which should be fun. Have suggested Norfolk as a venue and am going to suggest to stikki that she comes too. Seems like it could be fun
I feel the need to do something outstanding. Uncopyable. I may have to write a song or make something. I need more free time, dammit. *pout*
Fucking 9am and I’m still not at Shepherds Bush. Fucking Central line. Still, work can’t really moan as I was there until almost 7pm again last night...
Boy do I need a holiday...Oh, and some money.
Reasons not to see a Lloyd Webber production #279: H from Steps in “Joseph”
Forgot to charge the DAP last night. Oops! Am music free today. Well, apart from “The Dub Side of the Moon”, which is an extremely odd reggae version of the PF classic, which Dave leant me yesterday. Extremely odd. The intro to “Time” is funny though.
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Long day, short temper.
DAP being odd. Keeps playing the same tracks over and over. Even though it’s on random and has 3k songs on it. Odd. Most of the weekend I’ve felt like killing people. And I left home this morning and forgot my pass. D’oh. I get to be Team Lead on the White Label project which is good. Skint which isn’t good. Very tired too. I have small amounts of KHRP to do and then I have to chill. Lots. May attempt to write some more Beta. Yay. Or I may just chill. No idea what happened to Rick at all. Shame. If I’m going to have to start over with someone then he’d be a good start. He’s nice...tho it’s probably for the best...I’m too fucked up at the moment over J. He asked me why I needed to find someone straight away...which I don’t understand as it’s been almost 6 months. Ah well. I shall settle for being bitter and twisted instead. And I have to add a robots.txt to the site. Grr. I dreamt about James last night. It was very odd. We were laying there and he was telling me how he was excited because Beautiful Thing was on that night and that he thought it was a great film because it was so realistic. I was horrified. And we talked more but I couldn’t make any sense of what he said or make myself understood. I suspect it was a metaphor for the relationship...
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Nirvana
Managed to work out how to make the DAP charge properly with my laptop charger. Fuck you Creative!
Busiest week so far on the forums with almost 900 messages so far. Yay!
Pootled about online for most of last night...was too knackered to do owt else...Work was mostly filled with bugfixing...final bit of functionality (hopefully, if Kris finished it) will be tiled, strutted and made to look purty today. Some horrendous cookie manipulating still to be written, but that’s ok, I’ll live.
Really looking forward to rickster coming down tomorrow - just waiting to see what will go wrong, as it inevitably always does...Mentioned the picnic to him, he seemed to like the idea. Mentioned on the forums that I have possibly got a date and no-one knows who...if only they read my Journal
Got home last night to find an envelope with keys in and a ten pound note he owed me. Which hurt a lot and I’m not exactly sure why...
So. Final day before merge. Scary. I suspect we may run over though, Details is still a mess...guess that’ll be me tidying it up then...
Random bus drivers who stop in the middle of a route for no apparent reason really piss me off.
And Kitaro rocks!
*dances in his seat to "The Clouds"*
I wonder if the horn synth is a Kurzweil too...sounds the same as the one used in “Shine on...” Well, the same as that and a few hundred other 70s instrumentals.
John Williams is of course the downside to random play. And the “Ewok Celebration” is of course the down side to John Williams. Bah.
Nearly at the office and I have enough battery power to keep me in mp3s all day! Kickass! (as Joe would say
) - plus it’s sunny and I’m gonna be in before 9:30
It rawks, as a l4m3455 might say
Nirvana b0p. Yay
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Early riser
Got in at just after 7 last night...have some lovely new scaffolding They are apparently doing up the outside of the building to make it look veypritteh. Blokey got lost trying to find the flat so chatted briefly with James. He was meant to pop my key over but had forgotten it. Predictably as soon as I asked if he wanted to pop in and see me anyway on his way back (as he was in Docklands) I got no reply. That kind of thing is getting tedious. Today’s excuse was “I didn’t see the message until I got home” after “I told you I was busy” - no mention of the fact that it was the second time we’d had the conversation...*sigh*.
If he wants to stay friends, then fine, but it’s not going to work if he can only manage the convenient truths and little white lies...he seems to expect us to manage to stay close with zero effort on his part. Which just ain’t gonna happen. “I was never really interested in FreakCity” was yesterday’s gem. Following on from “Maybe for you, but I felt uncomfortable” a few days ago. I’m fully expecting “the sex really wasn’t that great” in a month or so...
Did photographs - some came out OK - then installed the DAP software on “Manny” and wiped the DAP and squirted most of my mp3s onto it over night. Can’t find the original cable for it, so it’s plugged into my printer one - must buy a new one.
Woke up at 5:30am. Couldn’t get back to sleep so coded enough of v2 to enable the forums to operate...accidentally broke the timewaster script as well, when I logged in I had apparently wasted somewhere close to 50,000 years online. Oops!
More bug fixing for me in store at work. Joy. Hopefully meeting Adam tonight as he’s meant to be in town, and James is allegedly dropping my key in later, though not sure if I’m in or not...or sure if I should see him before we have words...
What the fuck am I listening to?
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Two days to go...
And I think we may reasonably be on track for our Friday deadline
Silly day on IRC, with “he who shall not be named” the “Hardcore .NET developer” Not apparently being hardcore enough to know what CSS is or how it works. Also, Garry told me that my pisstaking of him had earned me a well deserved kicking. Bless!
So that was fun...Spent half the morning getting my build to work, so had plenty of time for gossip whilst checking out/cleaning/building/swearing/deleting/checking out....etc.
Phil (trouble) had tea with Mr Tony Bliar. Surreal! Mike showed me the hole in his hand. Oops. We enquired as to wether or not he had attacked Tony too, but apparently not. He knocked a painting off the wall thougn...tsk. Can’t take him anywhere!
rickster may be coming down for the weekend
James is installing stuff in Redbus tonight and is going to drop my spare key in on his way here - I invited him to pop in after but he didn’t seem too keen...possibly because I shouldn’t joke about how I feel with him...Oh well...I’ll live.
Doing some pics for someone at 7:30 - will post here if they’re any good
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Fuck off odd day
Wasn’t able to concentrate at all...very tired and very busy head. Managed to fail to not speak to James...*sigh* so I got my hopes up again to have them come crashing down again. I don’t think I am going to manage this. Grr. I hate my life
Chris isn’t annoyed with me, which is a good thing I suppose...told him we’d have to go out soon. Phil also mentioned he has an old mobile phone I can have, which is nice as I suspect mine’s dying...
I am going to try to do FreakCity stuff tonight - at least I want to get the forums viewable and postable to...
...and I think my warped and slightly buggered head has worked out how...
I really hope I can manage to sleep a little better tonight, I’ve been so tired.
And I’ve just left an umbrella somewhere on the tube. Cock.
The orchestration for “Weep” is beautiful...Makes me sad
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Comedy headline day...
TJ Still feel very wobbly. Still wish things were different. Still just wish I could forget the hurt and just fall asleep in his arms. Life sucks...
I’ve just had to come to some very hard decisions. And although it hurts, I do feel better about it. Possibly because it gives me a little more control over my life. I just feel like I’ve fucked up my one chance of happiness...but I guess deep down I know he can’t be what I want him to be...so all I can do is move on...
Class headline of the day is courtesy of The Metro:
“Gay Jesus could halt Jerry switch”
Apparently because mad USians object to the “gay Jesus in a nappy” in Jerry Springer, the Opera, so they are objecting to its move to Broadway...Madness!
Barbecue! On Saturday I got up in time to hear the front door click shut behind Gaz and Deev. My head hurt lots. A theme that was to continue throughout the day. Bastards
Pottered about a bit online. I had stayed up until about 5am talking c2c to Adam (space_chicken) whilst a bit drunk. Must have looked a state! He was invited, along with Roger...found mogwai online and a) sniggered at his commercial profile and b) invited him too...chatted some to Roger who was aware he was going out somewhere with Adam but not that it was to mine. *giggle* - got told off by Phil (trouble) for not inviting him, so invited him early so we could use his car for the transport of goods
- invited Mike (filthyandgorgeous) and Laura (laurs_bobbins) who said they’d let me know...Decided at about 1pm that I really wouldn’t manage it without some more sleep and so set the alarm for Phil at 4 and toodled off to bed.
Woken at 3 by an unexpected mogs, stuffed him in front of Matrix Revolutions whilst I washed up some and fed him cups of tea. My tea is allegedly legendary
Either that or mogs is a bit of a creep...*grin*
Phil arrived at 4pm, asked who the child on the sofa was...but mogs got his revenge later
We wandered off to Sainsburys in Phil’s small tank and bought enough food and beer to feed a frew hundred. Came back and watched the rest of Matrix, Ollie (olliecook) arrived, then Mike with Laura and pink wine - plugged Mike into my camera which kept him amused for hours - then others started arriving and I fired up the barbecue and started cooking as Owen was moaning about being hungry...it looked like it was gonna rain for most of the afternoon, but slowly got warmer and a bit brighter too. Made everyone smoke outside. I am so evil
Lots of people were there...it was great fun! Tho there were a few hiccups, Mike and Phil having a fight ended up with Mike in casualty needing stitches, and I thought I was gonna have to tie Danny up at one point, but hey...
Got a really lovely text message from Chris saying he was looking forward to seeing me at XXL, but I didn’t make it there as Phil took Mike to hospital - sent him a text saying I was sorry...but not heard from him since, really hope he’s not pissed off with me - I shall phone him tonight if he’s not online today...
Got to bed at about 4am - Danny was passed out on the floor and Ollie and TJ were being dirty on the other bit of the floor. Scary stuff. Left Danny’s coat somewhere he’d find it easy just in case he woke up and needed to run away
Flopped about for some of Sunday...played online...very happy with having enough computers for everyone. Considering converting my livingroom into a cybercafe for kicks...
Wandered out and did photos for TJ - it was sunny and gorgeous and I love docklands at the best of times, and it was fun too. Was trying to make TJ look like TJ, as opposed to how he looks in all his other pics...was very happy with a couple of them
We were looking around at places to live and stuff...worked out that between us we could afford somewhere gorgeous in Docklands - not that we’re likely to righ
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Done it.
Now I’m gonna try going cold turkey.
I feel like my insides have been removed.
I don’t know how I’m gonna make it through tomorrow
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Urgh.
When will I be able to sleep again without thinking about him? I hate feeling like this...and I hate that it feels like he doesn’t really care any more. If things had have been like this 6 months ago maybe all this shit never would have happened.
I hate it
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Barbecue
I wrote a big long thing about it here. Then pressed the wrong button and lost it all. So now I’m sulking.