+After the dust settles+ When the way we think moves, changes Running like water through a drain One after the other, pieces of what we were Flowing away like pieces of paper in the rain Standing, watching, powerless to stop Unaware of why it’s happening so fast Grasping for the pieces of the life we once had Hoping to find something that will last Silently the gap grows wider, deeper Suddenly I’ve lost you and I barely care Until I look around and see the shadows The place you once took, you’re not there Grasping at the past trying to build a future Crying with the pain of my present skin All I have left is hope and forgiveness But they’re not enough to bring you back in I taught myself not to regret anything I do But you I regret, the damage I’ve done I should have paid more attention, watched myself I should have been better, after all is said and done I am flawed, an old wound won’t heal Dealing with this made me lose focus somewhat So I’m stuck in the rain, watching you flow through my fingers I never wanted that. I never wanted that. Life comes unfurled, a new day unfolds And the realisation you hate me hits me again And all I want to do is turn back the clock But what’s done is done and only I remain The power to choose my own direction Was lost in your kiss, lost in your heart If only I could turn back time and start anew But it’s only me left now, we’re too far apart So how do I move on, where do I go? Will I ever know when my scars will break? My heart is with you, I am an empty shell I’m sorry, I made such terrible mistakes The Yiffer - 15/2/06. +35 days.