I have come to the conclusion I am not happy with any of my current choices in life. I need some stability in my life, I need to feel right again. I need to make some hard choices. I also need to get away a bit I think. Am considering France to visit James next month. I think I may stop drinking/smoking again. It eats up too much of my time. I was in a bad way Friday night after my comedy phone bill - and a crap week at work - and all I got for it was a £100 hole in my wallet and a sore head on Saturday. Feels again like I’ve had a single day weekend. After some bollocks Saturday that I really don’t want to go into, I’ve decided I can’t be arsed with a few things that left me a bit broken. Didn’t go out Saturday night - Dominic was OK about it but Chris sulked some. Instead watched lots of Buffy with Adam providing hugs. Sal popped over, ostensibly to see me, but actually I think because it was raining and he was wet and I have the internet. Finished the Buffy marathon on Sunday, Adam headed off to Ben and Ali’s place and I bummed around online and then got bored and watched the rest of “Lost” Very impressed so far Short week this week - off Thurs & Friday, so frantic work and then Swan on Weds... Bumped into TJ at Sean & Joe’s on Friday night. Hideous tacky bar but nice to see him. Said he’s coming on Weds too