I’m a tad late. I got to bed at 4am. Oops! Fun night though. Felt crap about arguing with James. I know I have reasons for being pissed off an all, but I’ll never force him to understand the bits he chooses to put down to me being a jealous ex lover... Need to break out of this pattern we’re in. We don’t see each other for a while, we argue, we see each other and kiss and make up and remember how nice it is to be together again...then not see each other for a while... I don’t think we’re going to be close for a while. Our expectations of each other are too different. We don’t really get on, aside from the special cuddles...we just don’t have a lot in common. He seems to think it’s cool to try and be an Ãœbergeek or something, and I intensely dislike him when he’s with other geeks. And he hates all my friends. And seems to love telling me this. I can’t of course hate his because in 2.5 years of allegedly being important to him I’ve not met any of them. So this time we’re gonna just not kiss and make up. The hurt’ll go after a while. Being mean in my Journal is almost like methodone Long day of frustrating bugs yesterday. Some bits of the test site were very broken, so I feel I may have some reopened when I get in eventually this morning. Adam mentioned he was doing karaoke, and I wasn’t going to go but by 6pm I was in such a bad mood I thought Fuck It and went to meet him in Bar Aquada (or however it’s spelt). Felt crappy for turning up and sucking the life out of the conversation. Must apologise to Dee for it as that’s who Adam and Simon were out with. Trundled to Retro - managed to have a few drinks and do karaoke. “There is a Light and it Never Goes Out” - I’m nothing if not predictable..."I’m going to depress you all now because frankly I’m having a shit week and I don’t see why you lot should be happy" - Listened to Breakfast at Tiffany’s and thought of OldJames. How crap am I? Missed NewJames as it was the first time in Retro since we were there last. We decided in the end to Amateur Strip. Warren, Simon and Adam made a pact that they’d all enter and if any of them won they’d split it. Adam won. Candy shaved all their pubes off. It was funny Met (Saint)Steve in the Swan too. Been chatting to him for aaages online but never met him before. Was nice! He’s much gayer in real life Smee was there. He’s split with Ed. Claims it’s all ok. Went home at 2ish, Adam and Simon took the other Ed(photo) to Chariots. Stayed up chatting to Warren until 4am. Ick. Today will be mostly fuelled by caffeine. Adam is meant to be taking me to lunch later and I’m going to try and phone NewJames later too for a chat. My new phone’s been delayed Was going to phone him using my free minutes. Grr.