So I let down my guard Soak myself in the countryside Envelop my skin in green Sink into blackness Held firm against the darkness Until I decide it’s time To arise, renewed, and walk Fresh and clean I return So I force my guard to stay Soak myself in my own bitterness Envelope my skin in grey Sink into darkness Held firm against black Until I lash out Arise in anger and run Until no-one can touch me So I turn to you I feel you but cannot help But feel myself