At work. Don’t want to be. Something’s broken but my brain won’t solve it because I’ve only had about 3 hours sleep and mostly I hate the world. Bah! someone seems to have vanished offline...not spoken to him since Saturday evening and am a little worried - hope he’s ok More jabs at the clinic tonight. Then sleep (or an attempt at it). Bought “chewable” (for chewable, read "chewable if you have no tastebuds") vit C in an attempt to overdose, turn yellow and remove this damn cold. Decided to try and survive today without a fag - so haven’t had one yet. Don’t know if I’ll manage a whole day, but will see. It’s now been over a week since my last beer (we just ignore the small amount of vodka Friday night ) So bored of feeling like shit. So very very bored. Bored of waking up in a cold sweat, bored of coughing whenever I do. Bored of everything like that. Made a roast pig and potato food thing last night for me an mogs, watched Christine and Twin Peaks and then had an early night. Predictably with little sleep. Grr