Blurgh. Have a cold again and feel pretty crappy. Wah! Had my jabs last night, with Lloyd and Nich. Now I feel like I’ve been playfully punched in both arms and my joints all ache. Although I maintained some level of butchness and didn’t whine about it like certain people we know I’m blogging early today because I’m bored and have Veronica to watch on the bus. Got a letter from Dan yesterday. The day after I found the address to write to him. Spooky. He sent it on the 27th, my lucky number. “Yes I am in prison”. Makes me sad, not sure why. Possibly because when he’s not being a sadistic madman he’s lufferly. “I don’t really know what to say because I don’t know if this will get to you”. Maybe if I’d have somehow stopped him meeting his ex this wouldn’t have happened. Sorta feel guilty for not being there for him. Suspect that the reason why he ran off in Dec was Chris so am not sure how he’ll be with me, but hey, he’s dealt with me seeing other people before (ok, so it was badly...). Hard to think that I was with him last valentines day, in the old flat, and he told me that he wanted to see me again, then ran off with Laura. Again. One day I’ll have a sensible valentines day again, just not right now. Bah! Will reply to him today and see if I can visit him either in Feltham or Reading. Huggie promised me pie in Reading. Huggie also told me off for bothering to reply to email from Chris. But hey, my life. Went to an overpacked and horrible Retro after jabs to see Simon and Gaz. Nich came too which was cool. Escaped from there (nowhere to sit or lean comfortably) and ran off to H2H where we sat downstairs and Lloyd moaned about his arms. Huggie got a bit embarassed by GazMEAN. Nich got a bit embarassed by everyone (possibly ). We decided to go for some food so went to Waga and admired the gay waiters. Ate lots. Mmmfull. Couldn’t finish my Ramen so feel fat today. Wandered back to Charing X so huggie could run away to Reading. Everyone sauntered home. Lloyd convinced Nich to get the bus with me, so I had company on the way home. Was appreciated but not necessary. Hope he got back ok. Will spank Lloyd about it later Novak froze on mogs, so got in, restarted the IRC server and DNS and stuff then went to bed, thinking about what I’d learned of Dan, Adam and Adam yesterday. Strange how the world works. Warren moved out yesterday. Now it’s just mogs and I left in the flat. It’s strange, quiet, unsettling. I shall catch up with him later and make sure everything happened ok. Nowt feels odd so hoping it went smoothly. Although I have a feeling about tonight, which could be interesting. Retro tonight to see keybum. Haven’t seen him since last autumn, so will be good. Disarm you with a smile And cut you like you want me to Cut that little child Inside of me and such a part of you Ooh, the years burn I used to be a little boy So old in my shoes And what I choose is my choice What’s a boy supposed to do? The killer in me is the killer in you My love I send this smile over to you Keeps rolling through my head. I shall perhaps listen to it as I catch up on work today. That and “The Only Place”. Bah. My head won’t let me move on No drinking tonight. But a bar full of drunks. How intriguing will this be? Hopefully James’ll be working so I can get a hug in his fag break