I am sitting here logged into OutintheUK, Gaydar and here totally bored and feeling all alone I have applied for a new job and trying to not get too hopeful that I will get it. If I get the job it will not only mean starting with a new company after 17 years with my current firm but will also mean that I will have to move house as I am currently in accommodation that comes with my job. In some ways I dont want to get the job as I am not sure how long it will last but on the other hand I am so close to telling my current employers to go stick themselves as they couldn’t organise a piss-up in a brewery The other thing is that I will at least be in a 9-5 job and not on call at all times I also am missing my sexy guy Rory- we cant make our minds up if we are a couple or not. We both want the other but distance is stopping us being together. He’s a student and I am quite low paid so we cant afford regular visits to see each other. The average cost of a flight is £130 or 12-14 hours on a ferry for £60